I do not give a hell about you.
I do not care.
I am who I am.
There is nothing happened yet but I already feel we are doing wrong.
Maybe more honesty and decisiveness are needed?
I can't explain why and how but I feel so free now, no stupid thoughts, no explicit emotions.
I will not step in the same sh*t twice. Haha, though this is what I promised myself tens of times :)
But this is my life, and I am learning from my own mistakes. And I will never betray my rule of never regreting. Never regret of what you have done, just consider consequences of the steps first.
Do you know what do we live for? What do we hurry up for? Haha, isn't it funny to perceive life as a race towards grave? A bit pessimistic view but realistic at the same.
Ohhh, but do not try to blame me for not enjoying what I have or not being thankful to whoever allowed me to be born (huge respect to my parents :)))
Do you know why we spend nights getting ready for the exams?
So many WHY's..
Do I want to know answers? Do I need to know answers?
I do believe that life is nothing but constant pursuits of ourselves, our place in life. And pursuit of happiness is the main driver.
Does love exist? Or shakespeare has made it up? What a pity if it so...
"Have you ever loved?" Can I love more than once in my life?
What is love? Chemical reaction? Instinct? Necessity? Miracle?
It has to do with 2 persons.
I do know what does it mean to be amazed by a person, to be infatuated, to be blinded.
These feelings bring me inspiration, they drive me, they make me laugh, they make me upset but I only enjoy it.
This is my nature, I can't resist it.
L.O.V.E - uff, sometimes this word irritates me..
Wouldn't it be cool to get married secretly? Like going to registry hall or whatever it is called, leave signatures and become married: only 5 people involved in this adventure, 2 just married, bestmen and person taking care of the procedure...
No one knows: neither your parents nor friends..
But you have ring and belief and adrenaline.
I just wonder how long might it take?
What will be the legal procedures to get divorced?
Oh my, can't imagine reaction of my parents...
It is like an experiment: I want to know how it feels when everything is done in secret...
Hmmmm
