5 Days to Go

It is 25th of January. 4 exams left, feeling a bit nervous coz I can predict 6 almost sleepless nights.

Can never make myself study something in advance. I do feel that February will bring changes, huge changes. Even 30th of January will clarify one important issue for me :) I am proud of myself coz I have overcome one little obstacle of my life, feeling ready to jump and dive in new stream.

Time is running out with every second wasted on living fake life. What is fake life? For me it is acting as others want or expect u to behave. Fake life is hiding ur feelings, being afraid to admit or share them. Fake life is following the stream. Being fake is being occupied with something u dont like at all and imitate pleasure u receive from it.

Fake means artificial. Artificial smile, artificial happiness.

Can't wait for spring to come. Fresh smells, bright colors, thunderstorms, air making u feel dizzy, and adventurism in blood.

1 month to go... I will face spring being 21 years old.

Can't believe it has already been 4 years since I have had high school prom...

Chemistry of Feelings and Instincts

So funny, life is so complicated, that is why, most probably, we like it..

Actually if there was be profile of LIFE on FB, it would have had the hugest fun club..

though some days the only wish I have in my heart is to discover meaning of life with all its complications, challenges and obstacles.

Sky is grey, it is raining, 4th of January, essay to be written, reading materials are all over my table and room.. Yeah, coming back to reality after New Year Celebrations. James Blunt suits my mood perfectly. Zebra should become my mascot :) Though I would prefer rainbow, coz life is so colorful, even though it seems to be very radical. One day it gives you happiness, another day is full of grief.

Haha, no, there is no grief- that's our mind, that's us who try to make up "bad days", "troubles" etc

:)

That's chemistry of our feelings and instincts..

He loves me, I do not, I like another one, another one doesn't like me.. So what?

Cry, Shout, Keep on Being Depressed?

F*ck off :)

No way, weakness is not fashionable :D