It seems to me that since I moved to Georgia whatever I do - I definitely do wrong and I have particular tendency to f**k up things.
Thursday, November 5, 2009
It seems to me that since I moved to Georgia whatever I do - I definitely do wrong and I have particular tendency to f**k up things.
Wednesday, October 21, 2009
Just Emotions
I do not give a hell about you.
Tuesday, September 8, 2009
My friends



I cannot compare any of my friends with each other. Any single of them is unique and precious for me. They are the ones who support and motivate me, those people who believe in me and trust me, those people who, staying far far far far far away from me, make me perceive their love and their constant presence in my life.
They are so different, those whom I call my Friends. But in each of them I can always find one feature present in both of us. The result of merging of all my friends’ characters will be me, with their weaknesses and strengths. My friends love life, they are not afraid to laugh loud, to be themselves regardless of society’s expectations, they live the way they want to without harming others around.
I have met them in diverse circumstances, I have lived through various experiences with them, I have overcome obstacles strengthening our personalities, I have coped with difficulties standing back to back with them, I have argued with them trying to reveal truth.
They are always around whenever I decide to make dreadlocks, piercing or die my hair. Haha, have to admit, not all of them support me in this kind of decisions.
They are happy when I am happy; they give me pieces of their happiness when I feel blue.
Life brought me thousand kilometers away from my friends but it is not the end of our friendship, that is new start, that is new chapter of their visits here, to Georgia.
I could never guess how much I am addicted to them. How much they do mean to me. How much I would miss them. I could never expect txt messages received to my mobile phone to make me happy as though I got proposed.
I do love my family. But I am not sure if my family knows me to the same extent as my friends do.
I do value friendship. Life gives us 2 wonderful miracles: love and friendship. Friendship might be as hurtful as love, but it also make take us up to heaven.
Thursday, August 20, 2009
Blue
It is raining outside, and I like the sound of drops on the roof.
It would be nice to dream when listening to them.
So many things happened today. And I got tired. There is a constant pressure on you even if you do not perceive it from the very beginning.
It comes from everywhere: family, friends, society. People expect so much from you. Haha, but, fortunately, I am just human being. Quite ordinary, nothing special, maybe I love people a bit more than they do me :D
I am just human being and that means I am making mistakes. Not every day hopefully. But making mistakes means I am alive and I am on right way. I am not heartless robot.
I never regret what I do, what I say, what I feel.
I do what I feel is right.
And I trust my intuition sometimes more than my logic.
Oh my gods, there are so many theories about male-female relationship. Haha, cool, I should have spent my whole life reading theories and never finding time to practice :D
Do you ever feel like not being understood? Do you ever feel life leaves you outside the mainstream?
Well, I believe even the strongest of our today world feel like that. I believe Bill Gates might have the same problem of getting irritated when something goes not just like he wanted everything to be.
Have to get up in 4 hours. Haha, being young is so wonderful: optimism, enthusiasm, energy, hope.
But tonight I am tired. And what person needs when he or she is tired is care. Word/gesture/touch/song/poem/sms/email. Whatever. To feel you are not forgotten.
And I want to be weak
But not every day
Just sometimes
To have a rest
And enjoy having someone stronger than I am close to me. Or maybe not that close.
Distance is relative
As everything in our world
Wednesday, August 19, 2009
so what?
Do you feel blue tonight?
Tuesday, August 18, 2009
Start-up
What I like about this world?
This world is full of miracles.
Every day itself is a miracle.
What I like about that world?
No one has ever returned from there to tell us how is it over there J cold or hot?
You make your life wonderful.
Failed? Broke up with boy/girlfriend? Got problems? Life sucks?
Overcome these. Go and sleep. Morning is wiser than evening.
Go on.
Move on.
Try hard.
When living last seconds of your life you will not for sure recall your failures or minutes of depression but all the bright moments you shared with beloved people.
And I have realized that you never know which of your pictures your relatives choose to put on your gravestone, therefore just smile J
And it is just random thoughts.
I want to keep memory of all people I have ever met and who had influenced me. I so much love them. And I am so happy me heart has space for each person.
Making new friends means destroying geographical barriers. Means overcoming limits. Means being everywhere even if not presenting there physically.
I love rain. He loves rain. She loves rain. We all most probably live in different countries but you know what? Rain is the same for us. We all get wet when walking under the rain. We all try to catch rain drops, happily closing our eyes and trying to hug the sky.
Ohhh, I resemble myself mad patient preparing for a session with psychologistJ
Haha, human brains is another miracle to me. I can generate so many thoughts at one time, and I have no idea how to learn to concentrate on one of them. I want to make something impossible. I want to live full life. I want to feel hundreds of emotions simultaneously. Want to love, want to hate, want to be happy, want to doubt, want to feel as wide range of emotions as possible.
I will never regret of what I have ever done. Because whatever I do, it shapes my life, it makes my life memorable. What seems to be silly today will make you smile or even laugh later on. And I am so sure: if I read this post in 1 year – it would seem to be extremely stupid and childish. We grow, we develop J
I'm a bitch, I'm a lover
I'm a child, I'm a mother
I'm a sinner, I'm a saint - my former MCP told me it is too much for one person. Is it?
What is this feeling taking over? I want to know this.
“When you were born, you were crying and everyone around you was smiling.
Live your life so at the end, you're the one who is smiling and everyone around you is crying.”