Thursday, August 20, 2009

Blue


It is raining outside, and I like the sound of drops on the roof.

It would be nice to dream when listening to them.

So many things happened today. And I got tired. There is a constant pressure on you even if you do not perceive it from the very beginning.

It comes from everywhere: family, friends, society. People expect so much from you. Haha, but, fortunately, I am just human being. Quite ordinary, nothing special, maybe I love people a bit more than they do me :D

I am just human being and that means I am making mistakes. Not every day hopefully. But making mistakes means I am alive and I am on right way. I am not heartless robot.

I never regret what I do, what I say, what I feel.

I do what I feel is right.

And I trust my intuition sometimes more than my logic.

Oh my gods, there are so many theories about male-female relationship. Haha, cool, I should have spent my whole life reading theories and never finding time to practice :D

Do you ever feel like not being understood? Do you ever feel life leaves you outside the mainstream?

Well, I believe even the strongest of our today world feel like that. I believe Bill Gates might have the same problem of getting irritated when something goes not just like he wanted everything to be.

Have to get up in 4 hours. Haha, being young is so wonderful: optimism, enthusiasm, energy, hope.

But tonight I am tired. And what person needs when he or she is tired is care. Word/gesture/touch/song/poem/sms/email. Whatever. To feel you are not forgotten.

And I want to be weak

But not every day

Just sometimes

To have a rest

And enjoy having someone stronger than I am close to me. Or maybe not that close.

Distance is relative

As everything in our world

Wednesday, August 19, 2009

so what?


Do you feel blue tonight?
Do you ask yourself rhethoric questions?
Come on!
Do not!
Just act!
Because life is so short, and you have so many things to discover and explore.
Are you afraid of mistakes? Noo, do not fool yourself, you most probably are afraid of people's opinion.
Do not be!
Haha, I have heard so many complaints and shouts about how I behave myself and how I treat my life but it is MY LIFE.
It is wild and crazy sometimes, it is stucked on the ground sometimes, but it is only mine.
And I am the one making lifeturning decisions
Though Shakespeare,haha, he almost managed to persuade me that once one more person would appear
I want to meet the whole woooooooooooooooorld
I want to get to know those people who amaze me

Tuesday, August 18, 2009

Start-up


What I like about this world?

This world is full of miracles.

Every day itself is a miracle.

What I like about that world?

No one has ever returned from there to tell us how is it over there J cold or hot?

You make your life wonderful.


Failed? Broke up with boy/girlfriend? Got problems? Life sucks?

Overcome these. Go and sleep. Morning is wiser than evening.

Go on.

Move on.

Try hard.

When living last seconds of your life you will not for sure recall your failures or minutes of depression but all the bright moments you shared with beloved people.

And I have realized that you never know which of your pictures your relatives choose to put on your gravestone, therefore just smile J

And it is just random thoughts.

I want to keep memory of all people I have ever met and who had influenced me. I so much love them. And I am so happy me heart has space for each person.

Making new friends means destroying geographical barriers. Means overcoming limits. Means being everywhere even if not presenting there physically.

I love rain. He loves rain. She loves rain. We all most probably live in different countries but you know what? Rain is the same for us. We all get wet when walking under the rain. We all try to catch rain drops, happily closing our eyes and trying to hug the sky.

Ohhh, I resemble myself mad patient preparing for a session with psychologistJ

Haha, human brains is another miracle to me. I can generate so many thoughts at one time, and I have no idea how to learn to concentrate on one of them. I want to make something impossible. I want to live full life. I want to feel hundreds of emotions simultaneously. Want to love, want to hate, want to be happy, want to doubt, want to feel as wide range of emotions as possible.

I will never regret of what I have ever done. Because whatever I do, it shapes my life, it makes my life memorable. What seems to be silly today will make you smile or even laugh later on. And I am so sure: if I read this post in 1 year – it would seem to be extremely stupid and childish. We grow, we develop J

I'm a bitch, I'm a lover
I'm a child, I'm a mother
I'm a sinner, I'm a saint - my former MCP told me it is too much for one person. Is it?

What is this feeling taking over? I want to know this.

“When you were born, you were crying and everyone around you was smiling.
Live your life so at the end, you're the one who is smiling and everyone around you is crying.”